HI Beau , first off , may I offer my sympathy , and undertanding , With out turning this around , I suffered from a nervous breakdown 5 years ago , leaving me with anxiety and panic attacks , I managed to get over it with the use of meds and "help" , I got back to work after a month or so . I too work for myself and have done for over 15 years . For me it was the stress of work , never switching off and worrying about the carp no one else cared about , final straw was a customer , or dare I say "client" , who for some reason decided he preferred to keep his money and not pay his bills , nearly 25 grand final payment , court , supplier maxed out etc all brought me down . I learnt and covered my arse from there .
Anyway , my point is this , in APril 2014 I relapsed , something big happened in the family and I fell of the wagon , since then I have barely left the house , maybe a few miles from home , I now struggle day to day , depression , anxiety , fear . I am lucky in that I can still work from home and have several companies and artists I supply parts for , luckily I know them personaly too , so I have their understanding about logistics .
I suppose my point it is , somedays I pull back the curtain and just feel like hiding others I feel good and just crack on . When I am struggling with drive I make a little note to myself to do something no matter how trivial , could be sweeping up the workshop , putting tools back in an orderly fashion , what ever , just do it , little feel good factor . When I get the time I do make items to sell , not ordered , if I am strugging for ideas or inspiration , I just flick google up and search , say a "wood and stainless table" and look through it all . I dont look to copy , just look for concepts , as there is only so many times you can re-invent the wheel !
You say you hate finishing items , so do I , so just shelve the project and start something else and come back at a later point , dont push yourself as that is no doubt part of your drive and confidence issue , just because someone may use 20 had cut dovetails , doesnt mean you cant use bisuits and hidden fixings , dont set yourself up to "mentaly fail" , make yourself realistic goals .
As my councilor / therapist / shrink says , baby steps , dont set yourself up to fail .
take care , Sam