Hi Folks!
Nice to read good feedback. In good news (for most) I'm not dead. Here's the reasons.
February of this year I thought I fainted on a job. Woke up on the floor having bit my tongue and feeling crap. Just before it happened I was having jerky movements. Had them since 14, thought nothing of it, usually gone withing an hour or so.
April of this year. I was in the workshop office and "fainted". However people saw it and it was not fainting but a tonic-clonic seizure. That's the classic we all think of, laying on the floor, muscles clamping down and biting of tongue. Went to hospital in an ambulance.
Following that, brain scan. Clear. Visit neurologist, seems easy take a low dose of meds. Come back in twelve months and we'll get you driving again. Cool!
Had an ECG,(heart?) for a day. Clear!
July, big seizure. Worked out what my "jerky movements" were. Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy. Went to the doctors, doubled my meds. Got worse and felt like crap. No more Tonic-Clonic but Myocloinc was made worse and if I had pushed it I'd of gone big time again. Seems like the meds make myoclonic worse. Neurologist visit again today.
Also in the mix was a big family trauma, private matter but massive and one more that could be massive.
Epilepsy is sleep sensitive. When did I do my stuff? Evening and night.
To be clear I was never, ever worried about comments that were bad. Found them pretty easy. I'm front of house for our business so when we get it wrong I get flack. In addition I'm really thankful for anyone who commented or even took the time to watch the odd vid or read some of my bollocks.
I wanted to close the thing down on YT because sometimes when you make something
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEAJ741bxnY, you see it's flaws even if others don't. I've made things I'm not satisfied with for whatever reason and smash them to bits. I've also always had the opinion that if I've earned something or made something it is mine to do with as I please. Cherish it, care for it, abuse it or destroy it. Nothing is left off the table. I decided to destroy it because I could and I wanted to
Also I did not want distractions while dealing with my condition and the stress it and other things were putting on my nearest and dearest.
This is the first time I've checked in for ages, not sure when the next time will be. Not because I don't enjoy it but because I'm running on empty.
Thanks all, imagine if I stuck to it. I'd have a billion subscribers and living on a tropical island
. I'll be checking in now and again